p h o t o g r a p h y . . .

Here's a little unedited sneak peek at our shoot for prey swim...

 M I A O U  B U S T I E R 

pants/top- blue life

hat- free people

specs- Tom Ford

professional at changing suits in public

 office for the day

ST TROPEZ ONE PIECE

towel - missoni

so in love with this entire line and cannot wait for the future.. 

photography- casey loza

model- audrina patridge

stylist- audrina patridge

w o l v e s

A fight is going on inside of you.

It is a terrible fight between two wolves. one is evil, he is anger. envy. sorrow. regret. greed. arrogance. self pity. guilt. resentment. inferiority. lies. false pride. superiority and ego.

The other wolf is good. he is joy. peace. love. hope. serenity. humility. kindness. benevolence. empathy. generosity. truth. companion. faith.

The same fight is going on inside of you and every other person.

 The one you feed is the wolf who will win. 

- Cherokee legend.

p l a s t i c w i n g s

Island life with sammy cakes continued...

Q. Can we talk about your passport!  Any tips on how to travel on a budget?

A.  Well you have to start yourself off right by researching a ton and helpful using companies like kayak, sky scanner etc. to score on the best priced tickets/ travel accommodations. Tuesday is the cheapest day to buy tickets side note* I usually save up a ton, and whatever kind of vacation I'm headed to I'm pretty well prepared. Rental car and grocery runs are first on my list and then I usually camp, snuggle up with the seats down in back of my suv rental or swoop on an air bnb or a cute safe, clean little hostel. Instead of staying at The St. Regis and never leaving your hotel and ordering $45 chicken strips for late night snacks, save that money and try to slum it - it's way more fun. Put that $45 towards upgrading to a 4WD so you can romp around and find a back road that leads to a natural mountain rooftop that you can watch the stars and talk story with the loved humans you've chosen to accompany you. (Although you have to do lots of research and be safe while roaming freely in unfamiliar lands) 

Q. What is your dream job? 

A.  To have a few acres on the BI of Hawaii, Hilo side. To farm hemp, create sustainable products out of hemp that benefit both the Mother Earth and her inhabitants. To have a beautiful garden surrounded by lilikoi trees, apple trees and guavas that home dozens of birds that wake me up each morning. Perhaps have a tiny house, a few tree houses for my nieces and nephews when they come to visit and a rad camera and a passport full of stamps. I want to travel and expose the wounds and blood that our Earth is experiencing in our life time, in hopes to expose things like deforestation, polluted rivers, destroyed ecosystems, sick oceans... In hopes that the humans on this Earth feel something after seeing it and wish to change, wish to save, wish to stop with the mindless consumerism and destruction of our natural resources. 

Q. What are you passionate about beside exploring Earth?

A. You mean finding Agartha? haha Exposing, exploring and learning. I intend to never stop doing any of these things.  Consciousness, time travel, the hollow Earth, ancient structures that link up to far away star systems that I beileve I once called home. I'm passionate about rolling in the warm sand under the milky way with my friends, making art and swimming in waterfalls and playing with animals.

Q. Can you take us through a day in the life of Island Sammy?

A.  Oh how I miss the island.
I wake up with no anxiety, no rushing, no worries. I hear the light rain on the tin roof and roll over to pet puppy and take him on a walk. Birds, rainbows, soft light and warm wind along with a macadamia hazelnut Kona coffee to start me off. I throw on some yoga pants and group up with some fellow humans to adventure around! Everyday is so different I can't really sum up everything in one day but whether it be wild dolphins, volcano climbing, jungle sweating, waterfall floating, shredding bowls, sipping dat green juice, hot yoga, salty kisses, pho dates, sandy's shorebreak session, north shore roams. The list goes on. My advice- go find out for yourself ;)

Q.  Has your perspective changed at all? You lived on a tropical island and are now back to the smoggy and grindy mainland.
A. I have so much perspective that I can see each person's reality and train of thought. I find myself angry at California, angry that everyone I know gets so sick here so often. That everyone feels validated only when wearing makeup and fancy badges of flashy society like accepting brands. I'm angry at the chem trails in the sky and the lack of time and love from anybody because they're too busy slaving away, stressing away for there job. It's a major bummer but when the sun softly touches the horizon when it's quiet and early in the morning - or after a good rain and all the canyons are lit up neon green- I realize that I love California, she raised me and loved me all along. I love her enough not to abandon her and leave her to melt away, I am here to help and after that I'm not sure where I'll wonder.. The islands feel like home and always will, but California needs me for now. What I'm trying to say is... love your story, love your home town, love your life don't run from it, it chose you for a reason so find that purpose and flourish.

"Why do you go away? So that you can come back. So that you can see the place you came from with new eyes and extra colors. And the people there see you differently, too. Coming back to where you started is not the same as never leaving." 

Q. What is your dream vacation/ travel bucket list?
A. I would say a few of my closest star sisters, hiking bags full, hammocks packed and South America en route. All the way from Peru, Lake Titicaca- Machu Pichhu- all the way down to Patagonia, and then some. To Antartica to explore the mysterious last frontier. Low maintenance friends are the best but they have to love themselves a ton too. Life is about balance. 
I plan to explore all the chakras of the planet and the poles and the inside. I love caves and hot spots. 

Q. Do you plan out your travels by the hour and have itineraries? How do you find these gorgeous hiking spots?
A. I usually have something in mind mapped out, but you can't plan or schedule your life out too much  that's how you lose hold of the magic. ;) I mean, my ex boyfriend was the guru of the outdoors and showed me the ropes and would always take me to beautiful hidden spots that would blow me away just to see my eyes light up- damn does time escape you sometimes. But yes, google maps is fun to find hikes, all trails app is my best friend when I'm solo adventuring, or just research blogs and find hidden gems. Just be careful of unknown dangerous plants and animals. Also- full battery (invest in a solar charger for multiple day hikes), a knife and a water filter are not bad ideas either.

to be continued...

l i o n e s s

Interview with my muse and the most beautiful soul I know Samantha <- go ahead and lurk so you see what I mean.. I'll wait.... #lifegoals

I have been trying to get back into shape after the winter and anytime I need inspiration I turn to Sam. 

Q. What is your secret to getting your body?

A. I don't have secrets, I don't eat animal carcasses, I don't drink cheap alcohol and I don't like to sit still for too long. 

Q. Any tips for someone who wants a lifestyle change? 

A. Everything is good in proportion so enjoy your life and order that beer, just perhaps consider a strong IPA instead of four sugary cocktails. And instead of eating meat as your main course swap it out for vegetables and exotic spices and sauces. Your diet and health is everything, get your blood work done check your hormones and food allergies. Buy organic food, and each morning may your ritual include earthing, meditation, stretching, journaling, soft music, multivitamins and probiotics.

Q. What if someone needed to lose weight fast (safely) for vacation?

A. If you're trying to cut down weight quick and re shape your body, replace dinner with a green juice and protein shake, cycle three times a week and just move your body into a new lifestyle. Movement meaning you can go on a hike surrounded by ferns and flowers, or go for a long swim in the lake, ocean, pool, whatever you can find. Go rock climbing or start climbing mountains on saturday mornings instead of nursing your hangover/sleeping in after late night Netflix binging. 

Q. So you must follow a pretty strict diet/exercise routine?

A. Don't get me wrong, time alone and time to reflect and set intentions daily is absolutely important to ones spiritual health and happiness which is just as important if not more than your physical self. Anyways I am done, I don't aim to be skinny or ridiculous either I just refuse to have less muscle than what would help me survive if the world fell into shambles and I had to survive the Apocalypse. Lioness 100%!

Q. What is your go to meal when you're short on time but want to eat healthy?

A. A piece of power seed toast with avocado on top, bell peppers, garlic salt and a little ponzu. Or just toast and almond butter if I'm in a major rush.

to be continued...

p r e y

P R E Y S W I M

It started with an idea. 

an idea that became a dream. 

This dream sparked passion.

   an idea fueled by pure passion...

The sort of passion that wakes a person up in the middle of the night.

The sort of passion that refuses to let go.

This passion has a secret love.

The kind of love that has a dorsal fin and rows of serrated teeth.

The kind of love that is dangerous yet delicate. 

There is great mystery behind that kind of love.

It is known

In the end people will only protect what they love.

In the end people will only love what they understand.

To know you must meet this love face to face.

Once you have felt the ancient power and basked in it's presence 

There is no coming back. 

dive in 

h u m b l e

traveling for no reason with no itinerary, if you've never done it you are missing out truly. 

the world is such a large place, it's easy to get sucked into the mundane everyday humdrum and forget that there is a great big whirlwind of wild adventure awaiting. I have been contemplating getting "yes man" tattooed on me. traveling is beautiful, it not only stretches our imaginations but it reminds us how darn small we are. 

being a mum and a wife can forge an overwhelming sense of selflessness leaving you to escape only at the wee hours of the night with a novel in a candle lit bubble bath. I've learned to reset how I look at things, you are in charge of your point of view, no matter how hopelessly stranded your situation may seem... you can change the way you see life. put aside all the pointless lessons your mothers, fathers, teachers, classmates, etc. have instilled in that beautiful brain of yours and create your own way of looking at things. brush your teeth with your Non-handed hand haha, (i'll give you a second to figure that one out)... 

I had an adult vision the other day, this is my life. I'm in charge of how I think, how I perceive. hmm... i've been trying to fit into a box for so long, all the things my brain has sketched into it that seem to be "proper".. it finally hit me, "this is MY HOUSE, MY FAMILY" throw all the expectations out the window and what do you have left? well, i don't want to spoil the surprise...

I have found joy in buying giant seagrass/jute/sisal rugs and painting them with gorgeous patterns instead of drudging through catalogs and trying to find what "fits"... I taught myself to venetian plaster, hahahaha thank you internet for the diy how to...

the car driving the exact speed limit in front of you whilst your in a hurry through a canyon, don't honk your horn and be a turd burglar, perhaps they lost a loved one in a car accident or were involved in a serious one themselves, YOU NEVER KNOW. YOU ARE NOT THE CENTER OF THE UNIVERSE. revelation!! wow! you have a choice. be kind, be loving, smile when someone gives you a dirty look. ( i get them a lot i'm assuming it's due to the excess artwork i've collected) 

seriously though, this is a jumble of thoughts and i just wanted to say. LOVE LIFE. make your own rules, if you want to buy two king size beds and put them next to one another then haggardly learn to sew two set of sheets together so your kids can sleep with you for as long as they think you're "cool" DO IT. I'm so much happier now that I've put all my past behind me and am creating a new future. Explore yourself, make mistakes and don't be afraid to take naughty b/w photos with your husband and blow them up have them framed and hang them in your bedroom. 

Kyle and I have a rule, we have to makeout before bed, every single night. no matter if you're tired, in a row, etc. full on teenager make out. life is good, and plant some cherry tomatoes once you see how fast and easy they are to grow you'll never want to buy them at the market again. 

put your iphone down and stop social networking, enjoy the moment. become 2200% involved in whatever you are doing at that very moment, whether it be watering your garden or coloring with your children. take a step back and live in the moment. 

there you have it. 

reveal yourself.<3

t h e o r i e s

Monsters exist. My children call them GMO's. This might sound out there if you aren't aware of the genetic engineering that is going on with our food in America. I say America because once you start to do your research you will be amazed at how much is ILLEGAL in a ton of other countries. I decided to interview my six year old son Draven about his theories... 

Q. Hi Draven, can you tell me about GMOS?

A. They are scary and soon they will take over the world. 

Q. What do you mean by that? Can you tell me a story? 

A. Once upon a time there was a scientist, probably a mad one in a evil lab. Maybe at one time he wanted to make food bigger and yummier to feed poor people but then he got evil and wanted to get a lot of money from farmers. So he went in his lab and cut open plants blood and made GMOS and they created monster plants and animals. GMO Corn is a monster plant, cows who eat monster plants are monsters too. 

Q. It sounds like you definitely know that eating GMOs is a bad idea.

A. They have chemicals that change your brain and make you sick and maybe dead. 

Q. How do you avoid eating them?

A. Buy organic food and read the box. I try to eat food that God made instead of science food that humans make.

Q. Why do you think they will take over the world?

A. because they can kill human kind and make mutants and there will be no one to stop them and they will take over the world.

------Thank you Dre, you are awesome and I love your brain.

( do your research on GMOS and eating organic, Draven is six and knows Genetically Modified Foods are bad for him to eat so goal accomplished )

This may seem funny that a six year old knows all this but he is very smart, pays attention and loves to help me cook. 

My own theory on eating (non organic/GMO) is that when you consume food that isn't natural to your design... (flaming hot cheetos anyone?) The body doesn't know how to use it as food (energy) so we store it as fat. Then we are still hungry because we've consumed some weird empty calories with no true nutrients. Building an excess of toxins that hold on to fat cells while they change our DNA. Since I started eating Organic foods and went on a vegan diet I am never bloated, my skin/scalp is 100% better and I have even lost the stubborn belly fat without having to exercise rigorously. 

so phase one... get rid of as many toxins as you can in your diet. I know eating organic is expensive but not eating organic isn't worth it. (google the dirty dozen list for some fruits and veggies you can start by replacing first) and take probiotics! We will get into that one later. 

-Casey and Dr. Draven

This is major.

Not really. Just trying to get back to writing aka purging my thoughts and clearing my head publicly and without fear. I've lost all hope for regaining access to my old blog Filthy Ego .. So without further slacking on my part I just created this as a temporary portal until my little nugget of a sister brings her brain over to set me up as a real blogger haha. 

hmm.. my children are growing, husband is still sexy, life is good. I've learned how to be content in all areas of my existence. There have been ups and downs, embarrassing television shows ( I still refuse to watch because between the magic of editing and miscommunication I'm smart enough to know when NOT to allow unnecessary pain/confusion into my heart ) 

As much as this blog will be my musings, I will also post the things I eat ( fascinating, just wait ), lots of photos of things I feel shamelessly vain for talking about, like my skin care, marriage/relationship advice, parenting, makeup routines, outfits, I love to spill beauty secrets so this should be easy. I'll also be interviewing the beautiful Samantha Patridge on travel tips because I live vicariously through her wandering the globe. INSTAGRAM has really been my only outlet the last few years but I don't know if it's because I decided to stop trying to fit the mold or once they added the insight button and I saw that 88% of my followers are women that I am re-inspired to blog. 

Recently Audrina ( my older sister for those of you just joining) asked me to come film a facebook live video for her and we ended up doing a second one with both of us right after just messing around and being silly. We then went to lunch and decided we should stop reading comments (some people on her social media are super mean) and just make videos being ourselves and doing eachother's makeup, styling one another etc. things we already do almost daily since she moved down the street from me. So I set up a youtube channel for that, Go subscribe <3 

Alight I think I've covered the introductory bases. Love you all and thank you for all of your love.

- Case